So for the longest time, I was just blocked, didn't have much to say. Be careful of what you pray for. Oh yeah, I have plenty of inspiration to draw from now, all hard earned. Today may be a little light, but I'll do my best to catch you up in the following posts. Read on:
The Pin Cushion
One of my earliest childhood memories is spending time with my Mom in her sewing room. Amongst bolts of fabric and boxes of trim, one of the curiosities was her pin cushion. Round and blood red it had a small little man sitting on top. He wore yellow pajamas and a blue straw hat. It never made much sense to me then or now, but I thought about it alot over the past three weeks while in the hospital for a blood clot that had traveled to my lungs, pretty much wiping me out. No hospital stay is pleasant and as the three weeks rolled on it became almost unbearable. They give you a sedative to help you sleep, but then wake you up ever couple of hours to take vitals. Chest xrays all times of the night, and the worst, the constant giving of blood. Your veins become thick and unresponsive quickly, leading them to find blood in smaller and smaller vessels. As this happens the pain becomes more and more intense. I finally developed a two stick rule. You can't get blood in two sticks, send in the next person who can. Finally, I just started meditating on the pin cushion. I would be like the man on top of the pin cushion. Never complain about the pain, just be an observer to the fact that I was being stuck yet again. This seemed to do more for my attitude than yelling at nurses or complaining or feeling sorry for myself. Just take a step back, knowing that things are difficult, but I am strong, and have God only knows how many people praying on my behalf for my recovery. I am home now, with Ken and the dogs. It's still tough going and the recovery will take some time, but at least, for now I'm not a pin cushion.
Ran, always with a sense of humor, you grace so many people's lives.
ReplyDeleteSo many people PRAYING for you! I'm so happy that you're home now...will continue to keep up the prayers. Love and hugs to Ken, too.
ReplyDeleteFrom the moment we met, I knew who you are. You are a special bright light that came in and brightened up my life, the room, everyone you touch. I want you to know how very special you are to so many people, how they love you. Praying for you and Ken because you and he are so special. You are an inspiration and a very fine man and very fine friend. I will always love you. Peace my dearest friend.
ReplyDeleteYes, Ran, you are the light. You taught me how to face your cancer with courage. As a healer, we need to be prepared for anything. As a human being, I have my own fears. You were so courageous and positive in light of your situation. I do not know how you faced last year with the medical treatments and discomfort. I am happy to have witnessed your joy at your survival last year. Your belief in oriental medicine and your connection to it at a very deep level really helped you heal.
ReplyDeleteWhen I moved to Long Beach last year, I was happy to count you as someone who I might call a friend. Practitioners are taught not to cross boundaries with their patients, however, in this case I bent the rule. It is difficult not to with someone like you. You have a deeply compassionate and generous soul and you are so funny.
May there be angels above and below you, and to the left and right of you. May you be at peace, and know that we all love you.
You are probably keeping all the other angels amused and falling in love with you too. We are all better people because you believed in them. Rest in Peace my sweet Friend.
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ReplyDeleteFarewell my dear. I found out too late, but I want you to know you had an impact on my life
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